I find my self crying, wondering why? What did I do wrong?… Words can’t explain what I truly feel…nothing I do seems to make a difference or change anything.. Life seems to no going any where for me. This is not the place for me, I feel trapped and alone… ” your so pretty” I hear from everyone. I just don’t see it? ” you have a contagious smile” where? I don’t see it. ” you brighten up the room with your prencennce” I haven’t gone any where?… Where would I be if I hadn’t made all those mistakes that now I suffer from?. Would everything be better. I’m a sensative person and no one seems to care, should I not care either. I find myself crying, tears running down my face. There cold and full of hate. Or could it be love, I just can’t explain… They fall and splash on the ground. To me its a loud noise, but no one seems to hear .. Things I say make no difference, its like I’m stuck in a hole, a dark hole that no one can see threw. I want to get out…. I’m can’t be a strong person. I don’t know how…. Strength is weakness to me.. I do everything wrong. Backwards? Maybe… Waking up, knowing I dreamed the impossible ruins the day. Knowing what ever I dreamed will never happen, today… Dreams are better then reality, can’t you see?.. I want to be in a deep sleep and live the life of the free… Waking up to the same routine, crying laughing, I can’t see. Where is she, where am I?. The girl every one sees.. Lovable caring, happy women. Me.