I see the moon & the moon sees me

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In your eyes I see hurt and love at the same time… I see all the hate you feel and the love that takes it away… Deep inside of you all that hate you think you feel is only love that won’t let you heal, from being hurt.. Your eyes shine, not because the sun is bright or the moon is full, but because tears that your holding in.. The tears that you know will hurt you if you let them shed… in your arms I feel the warmth and the strenght… You don’t want to let go… Then the pain, the hate comes back and you let go.. And it takes over you, all that rage and madness takes over you and you start to say the most hurtful things that could ever escape your mouth… I look at your eyes and its there once again, that love that takes over the hate… I love you, you say.. I need you and I don’t understand…come back and stay… Looking in your eyes the tears drop and you say they hurt… Like bullets shooting through… The hate comes back and all the things you say are mean and awful.. There cold and painful.. I don’t understand… I love you I need you, I just can’t be with out you… You stole my heart… Give it back I hate you. I see that pain coming back and it all begins again… Its a circle with no way out… In your eyes I see forgiveness and love, but the hate will never go away unless you look deep in and see how Love, is not finding that person with out flaws and perfect, its about finding that Person and knowing there not perfect and that make mistakes…. And create something so strong that takes you both on a Love Journey… Which will not always be beautiful but you can make it threw. Keep in touch ♥,Me ♡x♡x

Its like you want to run as fast as you can, with no direction. Just running running and tears dropping. You feel the wind against your face the tears turn into ice.. Cold, and painful . But that don’t stop them from falling.. You keep running not knowing where your going, then you fall and all you can think of… Is that person that made you cry in the first place. You say, and ask all over again.. What happened?.. How did I get here?… You feel like the world is gonna come to an end, like nothing else matters, like no one cares if your here or not… The mistake was, that you made that person your world, your everything… Don’t make any one your everything because when there gone ur left with nothing, but an empty hole a dark hole, with no one, no answers, nothing… But those memories that won’t fade away… Your face is cold and no matter how hard you try you can’t stop them.. They feel like knifes hitting your body over and over again. You feel the cold and that sting, the pain that won’t go away…your body goes weak, with no strength..your trying to get up, and you can’t.. Your not strong enough, your bones bend, your body has no strenght…then you learn that you shouldn’t trust any one..with the deepest most important part of you, you heart…your body… Your life.. Your Everything. Now I tell my self that, ” no trust” till you deserve it.. Like a couple of friends and some family.. You can’t even trust your damn family sometimes… And some friends just fade away.. Keep in touch ♡,Me x♡x♡

Look at love, from every angle, shape, or form… Have you ever been in love? I don’t understand love. It makes you cry and at the same time hate with an uncontrollable passion….it makes me want to rip out my heart and look at it. Poke it and cut it into smaller pieces. I see nothing in there. I see hate and love and happiness.., then I see it not functioning. What did you do wrong? Maybe you were beating at the wrong time for the wrong person. Stop beating, stop beating. I stare at it wondering why? Why? Why? Stop beating I say.. I put it back and now its empty…it tells me it will love again, and it will beat again at the wrong time… And its going to hurt… But it also said that with out it I can’t live…with out love?…with out my heart…see I look at it from an angle where falling in love is never a mistake… Or hating some one really isn’t hate.. It makes u cry and smile at absolutely nothing… You all are probably thinking ” damn this chick has been hurt hardore” right? I have lol.. But like I said I put my heart back in and it tells me I will love again and it might be the right time or the wrong time. But with my luck its gonna beat at the wrong time and its okay… Love is the most amazing hurtful feeling.. And the day you love some one you’ll know.. Maybe I do or maybe I don’t. I’m just a child what do I know haha..:) keep in touch ♡,Me x♡x♡

I find my self crying, wondering why? What did I do wrong?… Words can’t explain what I truly feel…nothing I do seems to make a difference or change anything.. Life seems to no going any where for me. This is not the place for me, I feel trapped and alone… ” your so pretty” I hear from everyone. I just don’t see it? ” you have a contagious smile” where? I don’t see it. ” you brighten up the room with your prencennce” I haven’t gone any where?… Where would I be if I hadn’t made all those mistakes that now I suffer from?. Would everything be better. I’m a sensative person and no one seems to care, should I not care either. I find myself crying, tears running down my face. There cold and full of hate. Or could it be love, I just can’t explain… They fall and splash on the ground. To me its a loud noise, but no one seems to hear .. Things I say make no difference, its like I’m stuck in a hole, a dark hole that no one can see threw. I want to get out…. I’m can’t be a strong person. I don’t know how…. Strength is weakness to me.. I do everything wrong. Backwards? Maybe… Waking up, knowing I dreamed the impossible ruins the day. Knowing what ever I dreamed will never happen, today… Dreams are better then reality, can’t you see?.. I want to be in a deep sleep and live the life of the free… Waking up to the same routine, crying laughing, I can’t see. Where is she, where am I?. The girl every one sees.. Lovable caring, happy women. Me.